This little corner of the web where I like to share my thoughts, my family, my life has been rather dry. It is strange, as I sit this morning with true free time I can't help but parallel my lack of writing with my current study of The Life of Moses. The wandering in the desert. Moses' deep love for the Israelites. His pleas for God to forgive their disobedience once again.
"Now may the Lord's strength be displayed, just as you have declared: The Lord is slow to anger, abounding in love and forgiving sin and rebellion...."
Numbers 14: 17-18
Their complaining. Their words, we would be better off in Egypt. His presence. His leading by cloud and by fire. His love and commitment to Moses.
Is the only parallel the desert, the dry? Have I been in a place of wandering? Of disobedience? Of complaining? Of forgetting God's presence since my corner of the web has become dry? No. I have had moments of wandering, of disobedience, of complaining, of forgetting God's presence, but that is just it they have been MOMENTS. Moments that turn into calling upon God's presence and reminding myself of His character. Moments that turn into a friend coming along side me in an unexpected way to provide that oasis in the desert. Moments that send me to my knees confessing my sins before a God who is forgiving, just, and abounding in love. Moments that remind me the grass is not greener in "Egypt," but He is at work in this place. Moments that cause me to weep over my children and how their disobedience exposes my disobedience and gives me a deeper understanding of my Heavenly Father. Moments that I have been mid-grumbling and I sense the Holy Spirit say, "Stop now." Moments that have led me to pray for the broken, to ask that my eyes by open to the pain of others that I would rather ignore. The moments have been more like bumps and less like mountains on this journey of faith I am on with the Lord Jesus Christ.
Like the song says, I am learning to:
So let go my soul and trust in Him
The waves and wind still know His name.
It's well with my soul